Window paints and glittery hats

Mom's favorite holiday has always been Halloween. It's one that's all about the kids and is just fun without all the other holiday pressures. I painted her front window last night. It's kind of juvenile looking, but I had lots of fun doing it and mom just loved it.



I also knit her a cap, as she meets with the oncologist on Tuesday. I used the The 'No-Hair-Day' Hairy Chemo Cap pattern and Adriafil Stars to create it. It's great--lilac and glittery, and mom loves it, too.

Sigh

Okay, first the good news...The ENT doesn't think the tumor on the tonsil is cancer. He thinks it's a sinus that's dropped?

The bad news. The liver biopsy showed it was breast cancer that's spread. They think that's what's on the lung, too. The one on the lung is right on top of a coronary artery and no surgeon will touch it. Not that they think surgery would do any good on either tumor. She still has to meet with the oncologist, but the surgeon/breast cancer specialist today used phrases such as:

"quality of life"
"comfortable"
"not much to do"

I asked mom if we're talking weeks, months, years and she said definitely not years. They're thinking about chemotherapy, but only if the pros will outweigh the cons and there's going to be a significant change in outcome.

I.am.completely.devastated. Please keep us in your prayers.

On a knitting note, I'm about 2 cm away from the sleeve shaping of a simple sweater for Adelaide. I'll post pics when I get a chance.

Why why why why why?!?

I'm angry. I'm upset. I'm devastated. I'm confused. I'm hopeful. I'm scared.

This week, my mother's doctor called her to say she has three new cancerous tumors--tonsil, lung, and liver. This is her THIRD bout with cancer. She had Hodgkin's twenty three years ago and breast cancer last year. She had two good mammograms. The 3 tumors were discovered when she had a PET scan to look at a nodule on her lung that had been discovered during a hospitalization for a blood borne bacterial infection. The nodule turned out to be nothing, but the three tumors showed up. I'm mad at the world and very depressed and anxious.

Additionally, my grandmother fell down on Monday night and we were at the hospital with her until the wee hours of the morning. She's 83, 84 at the end of this year and is insulin dependent and has alzheimer's. My grandfather hurt himself trying to catch her.

What a crappy week.

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I've been a bad bad ring manager. I ask for your forgiveness. Rather than give you some long drawn out pity story, I just ask for understanding that sometimes things happen that are bigger than you and family comes first.

That said, I've done some housekeeping. Those without links on their blog have been temporarily removed. If links have not been replaced in 2 weeks' time, you will be removed from the queue and must reapply.

There's been little development on the knitting front. I FINALLY received my handpainted yarn from the coop I joined. It took about 5 months and loads of emails. It's here, and I'm not sure I like it. LOL

So.....thanks for checking in. Hope all of you are well.