Thursday, July 28, 2005

Grandma's DNR

Yesterday, my grandmother's cardiologist came by and visited my grandmother. They have a wonderful dr/patient relationship. He has entertained calls from my Aunt Katie (who is a nurse) from Europe at 2 am. He has been quoted as saying that he treats my grandmother as he would his own mother. He is just devastated by this. Anyway, he came by and read every little notation in grandma's chart and sat down Katie for a talk. He said that there is no happy ending, barring a miracle. He said the temporary recussitation order that was in place, though he understands why, was not what she would have wanted. He said it needed to be lifted immediately and a DNR put in its stead. The family members who were in town, including my grandfather, agreed. The DNR was issued this morning.

I've been so completely depressed all day. I've spent most of it in bed. Bryan is a sweetheart and stayed home today. We went up to the hospital about 5, while my parents kept the girls. It was so hard to see her in that bed. She is now fighting for air. Though she didn't open her eyes, she squeezed my hand over and over. I talked to her for a bit, but couldn't talk to her for too long as it just broke my heart. For the first time since grandmother had her stroke, I finally cried today.

5 Comments:

Blogger Catherine Kerth said...

i am so sorry for your pain. your grandmother sounds like a fighter..... i will pray a lot for your family. you are in my thoughts...

Thursday, July 28, 2005 9:32:00 PM  
Blogger wendy said...

*hugs*

I'm really sorry.

Friday, July 29, 2005 4:05:00 PM  
Blogger Jeanne said...

This is so hard. I went through something similar with my dad a few years ago, when we had to decide to turn off the life support. My sympathies to you and your family. Your fellow bloggers are with you.

Jeanne (KPoYC ring)

Friday, August 05, 2005 1:38:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know you at all, I just linked from another knitting site. I just want to let you know your family is in my thoughts and prayers. My great grandmother had a stroke when I was about 15, and she sounds a lot like your grandma. She was healthy, independent, but a smoker. It was a surprise and very hard. I had a really hard time making myself visit her sometimes because it hurt so much to see her so diminished. We all spent a lot of time with her in her last years though. I guess that was a good thing. She lived for about 7 years after the stroke(s). I hope your grandma is doing well and making progress in the right direction.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005 10:53:00 PM  
Blogger Ruinwen said...

I will pray for you and your family. If you would like Reiki I will send that too.

Ruinwen
:)

Wednesday, August 10, 2005 8:05:00 AM  

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