Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Another update

was just over at my parents, and have come to the understanding that the grandma I know and love is gone. I saw the CAT scan and it's just freaky, the way one side of her brain looks normal and the other side looks just like someone Photoshopped all the creases out of it. You can even see where the brain has started to swell.

Knowing my grandma, she's shaking her head at all of us carrying on. This is the woman who used to want the Fisk Jubillee Singers at her funeral. Now she just wants Bryan to sing "On the Road Again." She made him promise a few months ago that he would. She swore if he didn't she'd be singing at his bedside every night, just to haunt him.

I hope that Grandma is not trapped in her body. I hope that she's not painfully aware of all that's going on. It's so hard, because we don't know if she'll make it through the night, die of the swelling in a few days, die of infection/pneumonia/etc, or pull through and spend the remaining years dealing with learning everything again. She was a true Southern Belle, and I don't think that's what she'd want. I love her and miss her already, though she's still here.


Blogger Catherine Kerth said...

yoour grandmother is in my prayers, i hope that she is not aware and trapped, i hope she goes very peacefully....

Friday, July 29, 2005 7:41:00 AM  

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